Today we’d like to introduce you to Nicholas Vivar.
Nicholas, can you briefly walk us through your story – how you started and how you got to where you are today.
My mom put me in piano lessons when I was ten, and I hated it so much. My hands were so small and I didn’t have the patience to learn music theory, so I quit after about two months. Couple years roll by and I find myself absolutely in love with music. All kinds. One moment I’m listening to Underoath, the next I’m on Kanye, then that after I’m jamming on Coldplay, etc. I just loved music. I was fascinated by instrumentals and musicality. I decided I wanted to learn every instrument that was in used in pop music, so I spent a lot of my younger years learning drums, bass, guitar, and finally piano by watching videos on YouTube. I’m lucky to be able to play by ear so it came pretty easy to me. I grew up in the church and all of that time spent on YouTube ended up paying off. I dropped out of college to take a Music Pastor job back home in the bay. I did this from 2016-2018. I’d say my musical ability and taste really started to develop and shape during this time. I had a really hard couple of years regarding relationships, so I decided to start writing my own music during this time, I felt like my lyrics didn’t really have as strong of an emotional impact at the time, but I still continued writing. The more I would write about pain and suffering and broken relationships and my doubts about faith, the more I felt I would have to suppress and censor my music and songwriting. I had a hard time being genuine with what I was doing because of my work place and religious affiliation. This past year I decided that I couldn’t hide or lie to myself and others about how I actually felt in my heart about those things. I decided to start writing and creating music about how I felt when it came to the topics that felt taboo in the culture, I grew up in.
We’re always bombarded by how great it is to pursue your passion, etc – but we’ve spoken with enough people to know that it’s not always easy. Overall, would you say things have been easy for you?
Oh man. No haha. Most of my music is a product of a lot of hurt and suffering and questioning. I love upbeat love songs that have cute happy endings, or songs that have a ton of hope. But, for me personally, my experiences in the past few years have been really tough for me. Mentally. Spiritually. Emotionally. I had a couple break ups that really have affected me, as well as an identity crisis when I decided to leave the church. I tried writing upbeat happy stuff, but it just doesn’t do justice to the things I think and feel on a daily basis currently. I think the largest obstacle for me was to reach a level of vulnerability that made me feel comfortable enough to let the world know what I actually thought about God, religion, and relationships with other humans. I am still definitely trying to figure that out, but what I do know is that it is insanely freeing to express myself and my thoughts in complete honesty. It’s actually the best thing in the world. My hope in what I do is that I could inspire even at least one person, to be their most honest and genuine selves to the people around them, regardless of what culture or upbringing says. I think that’s true freedom and it is the only way we are going to be able to love, respect, and truly understand one another in our fullest capacity.
Please tell us about your music.
I’m currently working on an indie rock music project under the name given by my mom. “Nicholas Vivar”. It’s called “Everything Under the Sun”. I play all of the instruments on the record as well as the vocals. It is completely self-produced. I’m recording everything in my bedroom currently. It’s small, but it works. I think I’m most proud of the fact that I’m doing everything on this one by myself. There is something really cool about knowing that every little aspect that is going into this record came from head. Whether it’s lyrics, or production, or recording. It just feels cool and I feel thankful that i can be my own little band. The vibe is pretty raw, and I think it’s because there are some parts of production where I literally have no idea what I’m doing haha. But I think that is okay and I actually am strangely proud of that too!
100% of income from music streaming will be donated to foundations and organizations supporting ”Black Lives Matter.”
Has luck played a meaningful role in your life and business?
Hmm. I have awesome luck in certain things, and really terrible luck in others. Awesome luck would be that I was born with the gifts and talents to play a ton of instruments and be able to sing and song writer. The not so awesome luck would be in the fact that I’ve had a really rough mental, emotional, and spiritual journey. So, I guess if you combine the two, they balance each other out. But I actually think it’s a great combo. Go through really painful things that people would consider “unlucky” but then have the gifts and abilities to turn it into art seems really “lucky” to me. So, I think It would consider myself pretty lucky.
- Website: https://open.spotify.com/artist/1NdlcMGjgfA2voUuLSByKX?si=rGGLhzx5Qre5ayBOxAkkTg
- Phone: 925-640-0827 Give me a ring let’s talk about life experience 🙂
- Instagram: @vivarmusic
- Twitter: @nicholasvivar
- Other: Spotify! https://open.spotify.com/artist/1NdlcMGjgfA2voUuLSByKX?si=rGGLhzx5Qre5ayBOxAkkTg